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It’s almost late at night but I’m still awake. I have just finished my loads for today and tomorrow, new things waits.
As I lay my head to rest, I want to have a silent moments with the Lord first, cast to him all my cares and burden. It’s the only thing I know to ease the pain and suffering I felt within. If I have to categorized everything, God! I never want this thing to affect me, to destroy me. Though I admit, the ghost of yesterday still haunts me, trying to break me but I have to be strong, I have to fight that empty feeling, I want to break that well formed femininity in me that is so sensitive and easily get affected.
I have many dreams and plans, not just for me, it’s for my loved ones. I don’t take on my own; they are always a part of it. But when it comes to struggles and hardship, I rather choose to fight it on my own. I don’t want them to be hurt and be disappointed, I don’t want them to suffer the way I feel. I know I can do it! By GOD’s grace I know I will. You know why I have this strong persistent to pass all these. Simply because GOD is with me, there’s nothing I can do but to lift everything to him. My GOD is able, everything were sets according to His Plan so I will forever cling to him. He knows what the best for me, so I just take everything as a blessing, whether good or bad, it will always be a blessing. I sometimes feel so neglected but GOD opened my eyes how important I am to him, how I am well loved by him.
So take my life Lord, to be a living sacrifice…knowing it’s the least that I can do for you to show how much you mean to me.