One thing I ask of the LORD, this is what I seek: that I may dwell in the house of the LORD all the days of my life, to gaze upon the beauty of the LORD and to seek him in his temple. For in the day of trouble he will keep me safe in his dwelling; he will hide me in the shelter of his tabernacle and set me high upon a rock...Psalm 27:4-5
It’s almost late at night but I’m still awake. I have just finished my loads for today and tomorrow, new things waits. As I lay my head to rest, I want to have a silent moments with the Lord first, cast to him all my cares and burden. It’s the only thing I know to ease the pain and suffering I felt within. If I have to categorized everything, God! I never want this thing to affect me, to destroy me. Though I admit, the ghost of yesterday still haunts me, trying to break me but I have to be strong, I have to fight that empty feeling, I want to break that well formed femininity in me that is so sensitive and easily get affected. I have many dreams and plans, not just for me, it’s for my loved ones. I don’t take on my own; they are always a part of it. But when it comes to struggles and hardship, I rather choose to fight it on my own. I don’t want them to be hurt and be disappointed, I don’t want them to suffer the way I feel. I know I can do it! By GOD’s grace I know I will. You know why I have this strong persistent to pass all these. Simply because GOD is with me, there’s nothing I can do but to lift everything to him. My GOD is able, everything were sets according to His Plan so I will forever cling to him. He knows what the best for me, so I just take everything as a blessing, whether good or bad, it will always be a blessing. I sometimes feel so neglected but GOD opened my eyes how important I am to him, how I am well loved by him. So take my life Lord, to be a living sacrifice…knowing it’s the least that I can do for you to show how much you mean to me.